It's 0930 which means it's way past my bed time, lol. Ever since I have become a mom I am in bed when Harley is. I remember when Michael and I were long distant, and we would stay up till 2 or 3 a.m. just to talk to each other, and now we pass out as soon as our baby does.
Here lately there have been so many people running their mouths and it really still just bugs the hell out of me. How can someone talk about a poor innocent baby? What did my child ever do to you?! It's people that are the ones who are closest to me too. I just don't get it. I am not a bi est person, but I know my baby is adorable. Friends who you think are your friends, show not to be, especially up here in NC. I really do miss my life back home, but would never ever give up what I have now to be back in SC.
Every since I have had Harley my whole life has changed, but for the better. She has made me grow up a lot. My whole outlook and perspective on life has changed. I realize how my mom feels now just with me growing up. It makes me cry, the one person who I used to think was the bad guy, turned up being my very best friend. My mom is the one who I can run to and talk to about anything. We have both been through a lot of rough times together. There is stuff I wish I could right what I have wronged. I know I can't change the past but we can all make for a better future. The world doesn't revolve around me or you anymore, it revolves around my baby, the one who looks to me for everything. I am very lucky she has an amazing set of grandparents, aunt and uncle, and dad. One thing I do know, if anything was to happen to me, Harley would be very well taken care of.
Michael is the only one in my life who has always been there for me, since we were little it seems. I never knew in this crazy chaotic world I would actually end up with him. It makes me happy knowing Harley will never have to grow up not knowing who her daddy is.
Sorry, just thought I would rant a little tonight. There will be PLENTY more to come. :)
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